motomotoyama | (no subject)

Okay, now I feel like an ass. I pitched my online fit and then went to the team meeting trying not to be completely cranky over the whole thing. I started to feel better after people noticed I wasn't in the lineups, asked why and then said "That sucks." Knowing that people agreed with me even a little bit helped really ratchet down my frustration over the whole mess. Then, halfway through the meeting, I found out that I was indeed skating because other people were sitting out instead. I felt very sheepish, because I didn't post and complain because I wanted things to go my way. I just wanted to express my utter disappointment. Being benched legitimately (which I have been in the past) is a bummer, but something that I can prepare for. Being blindsided after truly making the effort to go to practice was very disenheartening. You can be sure I won't make the mistake of falling behind on tracking attendance again. Not just for myself, but for the entire team.